Feeling down
It’s only been 4 days, but me eyes are driving me mad. How did people manage before contact lenses? I have spent most of the weekend pondering eyesight - and how much I take it for granted. Last night I was chopping an onion, and it was hard. Because of the way my eyes work, it was difficult to see where I had chopped, and what needed chopping. That is not a good state to be in with a very sharp knife in your hands.
Then I got to thinking. What the hell would I do should I ever totally lose my sight?
I read such a lot. I usually have three books on the go at any one time - one in my bag, one in the kitchen, and one in the bedroom.
I live a fair way from the centre of town - how would I cope if I couldn’t drive? And couldn’t see to catch a bus?
I like to make things with my hands. I like to do crafty things. I couldn’t do that without my contact lenses.
I love to cook. How do blind people cook?
I spend a lot of time on the pc. I would really miss that.
How would I do my work?
It scares me. A lot. And I am also feeling very sorry for myself at the moment.
It feels like my sight is getting worse as the days go by, but it’s not, it’s just my brain getting lazy. Friday wasn’t too bad at all - but then every so often I take a day off from wearing my lenses, so it is something I am used to. Saturday was also not too bad. Yesterday morning was okay (I even drove to the local post box to post my sister’s birthday card, not sure why I bothered since it’s not arrived today), but by the afternoon I was starting to struggle.
This morning wasn’t so good. Work has been a struggle all day. I will go in tomorrow, but if it’s bad, I might end up having to take the rest of the week off sick.