Sad
Unless there is a change of plan, tonight was the last time I will see LELI before he leaves.
Last night was his shared leaving do from work (someone else from my old department was leaving yesterday) which was why I was out and got drunk. It was nice to be out with old work colleagues - even though I know it’s baloney, it’s nice to be told how bad things are now I have left, and how they wish I still worked there to kick ass. It’s nice they think things would be any different if I was there, even though I know different - I only gave the appearance of doing good because I had great people doing the work for me, and they are still there doing there work, so it really wouldn’t make that much difference me being there.
I had made both LELI and the other guy a leaving card (well, I couldn’t make one just for one of them). The other guy was pleased with his, and put it out on the table, and was showing it off to people. LELI asked me to keep it in my bag as he didn’t have big pockets. I still showed it to people until he made a comment about it being ‘private’ - that was quite sweet I think, as inside I had written how gutted I was he was going, and how I was going to miss him.
Tonight we went out for dinner. It was really nice, but for some reason there were a lot of awkward silences. I guess it’s hard to know what to say, but I found myself babbling a lot, saying the sorts of things I would say to someone I hardly knew.
Not fully crying, but I did have a tear in my eye as I drove away after dropping him off. After making a sincere promise to visit him back in Italy (like that is going to be a hardship!).
Tomorrow is part 2 of geek days out, as me and FKM head back to Bletchley Park to look at old computers. Oh the joys of being a geek!