Men!
I am annoyed with him. Of course I am. But I am also annoyed with myself, for actually believing he was any different.
I am pissed off he didn’t tell me about his ex - we had the discussion months ago about her, I asked him if he still slept with her (because let’s face it, most people who split up but still see each other as ‘friends’ continue to have sex for some measure of time) and he assured me it had been months.
I know he has slept with other women since we started this merry dance, because he has told me.
He had almost a whole week to have mentioned it to me, and he didn’t. He had a fair amount of time Friday night to have mentioned, and he didn’t. And I know he didn’t because if he had done, he might not have got a shag out of it.
Typical bloke.
But I should have been given the choice to make the decision as to whether I would sleep with him or not, knowing the full picture.
I knew he was at a party Sunday night - he texted me to say so at 4 am. The text didn’t say he was at the party with his ex (nice party of 6, 3 couples, there’s a nice picture). It makes me wonder how many other times he has been with her and is texting me when he gets the chance. And also how many times he was texting her when he was with me.
He texted me yesterday afternoon, saying he still doesn’t really know what is going on, but he is going to ‘go with the flow for now and see how it goes’.
Bollocks to that!
My reply? “‘Go with the flow’ sounds like a cop out to me, a way to avoid making a decision so if it goes wrong it is not your fault”.
I spent too many years with my ex to see that for exactly what it is - he spent his whole life avoiding decisions, in an attempt to avoid being blamed for something going wrong. So maybe it’s a blessing in disguise, because that is somewhere I do *not* want to go again!